What Eh Ver

Hi guys and girls. Just a brief update on what's being going on, which is the usual: not much. Once again I've been pretty down lately, feeling bummed and frustrated and kinda feeling the need to run away and get out of this depressing rut. But anyway. As of 2 Nov, I officially finished the first draft of rewrites on my musical The Edge, which I hope will be staged by April or latest May 2010. So that's really quite exciting, and yet frustrating, knowing there's this material that I know, I know deserves to be staged and yet hasn't, while mediocre productions are cropping up left right and centre out there. Sorry if that makes me sound like a self-absorbed douche. I prefer to see it as being confident of what I'm able to do, even though I don't feel that confidence as much as I tell myself I should. Does that make sense? Oh whatever.

Anyway, next steps involve putting together a production team, finding cast and crew, and then having to work on the demos and scores and the... gah, you know how it is. I'm exhausted just thinking about it. And then I get frustrated. And then I get bummed and feel the need to run away. See a pattern here? Meanwhile, I'm thrilled I went on this diet, because now that I've rediscovered the joys of binge-eating, it sure makes me feel damn good to stuff my face to make myself feel better. Lovely, isn't it? Like I said to little Jo the other day, sometimes I just don't have the motivation and energy to live. Life is too exhausting. Which isn't indicative of my wanting it to end, so don't you worry about that, but I'm just saying... I'm tired of being tired, and yet I'm still here. I'm still here and going nowhere fast.

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